My diary !

Whatever you do from  right to wrong or wrong to right , you should always follow you're instinct !! No matter what other's think about you , if you really wanna do that , just do it !! Sometimes you have to choose between your brain and heart . Don't get confuse just do the damn shit you desperately want !! Don't wait for the right person , just be that right person  !! Don't wait for people to call you a Rock star , just be that ROCKSTAR in your life !! .

I am tired of pretending being strong everytime coz I am breaking into million pieces from inside. My life ..it sucks !  I don't know my purpose of being on the earth . For what I am living for ? For whom I should  live ? If you would tell me.."live for yourself" ..then I am  sorry ..I don't wanna live anymore . I have many people who love me but with whom I expect more they don't even care about me . Life is so ironical .. Sadness lead  you to happiness !! Darkness leads  you to light ! After every dark clouds you have to see morning sky . But this repeats again and again and again !! Why things aren't constant ? Like why don't we stay happy forever ? Like why don't we get our love forever ? Like why don't people live forever? Like why don't we smile forever ? The main reason why things aren't "forever" coz it is destined and a tradition . NATURE CHANGES, THINGS CHANGES, PEOPLE CHANGES, LOVERS CHANGES...

You broke me into million pieces last night . I thought you trust me a lot but you don't . I thought you value me the most , above all , but you don't. I mean nothing to you, this is what I realized yesterday. For you I am just like any other girl you found on Facebook . Ohh yeah ..you found me on Fb ! That's the end of the story you'll block me from there and leave one day ..like you do with others !!! But you promised  with me you won't do this but don't you ever promised with other's girls too? You are master in breaking heart of girls ..! I am not SPECIAL to receive your love and care , right? You can leave me for an  another girl . Wow! You can leave me for no reason . You can hurt me for no mistake of mine . You can be rude to me without letting me know the reason . You can come and go anytime without telling me am I really an imp. Part in your life or not?  And you know what ..I'll never ever get answer of these question till my l...

I don't know wht feeling is this , but what I know is I am a stone of sand . I look tough but I could be shatter any time . I can feel everything is against me . I am dying everyday . I really don't care what people thought about me ..all I want is betterment of my family and friends . I am missing them badly right now . I had already loose control on my  tears . Life is getting tougher !!! I miss my mom .She was strong like an angel . I am not as much strong as her.